One Month Old

Stitch is my teddy bear from childhood and I thought it would be fun to use him in all of her monthly pictures to show her growth! Now I know I am biased but I just can't get over how beautiful my baby girl is! 

Two Weeks Old

Another doctors appointment and Ms. Lettie is almost back up to her birth weight, which is right where she should be! My milk came in when she was 3 days old which was a relief. I did break down and supplemented once with formula, it was on the third night and she just couldn't be consoled but once she ate she was as happy as a clam and went right to sleep! 

I also learned at this appointment that babies who are solely breastfed need a vitamin D supplement because it's the only vitamin that isn't transferred through breastmilk. So we picked up concentrated Vitamin D drops and she will get 400 iu per day.  I love learning new things! 

She eats every 2 - 4 hours during the day but sleeps about 4-5 hours at night gets up to eat and then goes back to sleep for another 2-4 hours. She is a good little sleeper already so I know I'm a lucky momma in that aspect. She is easily consoled and loves to snuggle with mommy and daddy. 

Her measurements: (I think the CNA wrote down the percentiles wrong :( but I will share what I was given)

Height: 20 in = 49th percentile

Weight: 7lb 5oz = 29th percentile

Head Circumference: 14.25 in = 87th percentile 

Reality

Well my baby is a little over a week old and my husband has gone back to work. As I have mentioned before he is an over the road truck driver, meaning when he leaves the house "to go to work" he doesn't come home until all of his "loads are delivered" which is usually about 5 days. This has always been his career and it is to no surprise to me but on this day I am feeling mad. I am mad that the father to my baby doesn't get to see her grow every day, I am mad that this is the life we live and I am also mad at the people who take it for granted. (Just to clarify... this is a new momma ranting and and I may not agree with what I am saying tomorrow but for today I have to get it out.) I just wish we had a "normal" life. I wish we both had 9-5 jobs and we got to all three be home together every night but that just isn't in the cards for us right now and I hate it. 

Ya know, I do consider myself to be a strong women. Someone who can do it all. But I know with what I am taking on... full time job, part time graduate school and single motherhood 5 days out of the week... I am going to have to ask for help, and I HATE asking for help! That is probably going to be my biggest feat in all of this. I also hate for feeling the way that I do because I know it is just as hard for my husband to be out on the road. Today I just feel like life isn't always fair but...

 what I do know is that I have a BEAUTIFUL HEALTHY BABY GIRL and that in itself is enough for me :) 

We miss you Daddy