Reality

Well my baby is a little over a week old and my husband has gone back to work. As I have mentioned before he is an over the road truck driver, meaning when he leaves the house "to go to work" he doesn't come home until all of his "loads are delivered" which is usually about 5 days. This has always been his career and it is to no surprise to me but on this day I am feeling mad. I am mad that the father to my baby doesn't get to see her grow every day, I am mad that this is the life we live and I am also mad at the people who take it for granted. (Just to clarify... this is a new momma ranting and and I may not agree with what I am saying tomorrow but for today I have to get it out.) I just wish we had a "normal" life. I wish we both had 9-5 jobs and we got to all three be home together every night but that just isn't in the cards for us right now and I hate it. 

Ya know, I do consider myself to be a strong women. Someone who can do it all. But I know with what I am taking on... full time job, part time graduate school and single motherhood 5 days out of the week... I am going to have to ask for help, and I HATE asking for help! That is probably going to be my biggest feat in all of this. I also hate for feeling the way that I do because I know it is just as hard for my husband to be out on the road. Today I just feel like life isn't always fair but...

 what I do know is that I have a BEAUTIFUL HEALTHY BABY GIRL and that in itself is enough for me :) 

We miss you Daddy